Thursday, June 16, 2005

Postless

I apologise to my visitors for the postlessness for a few days. Okay, why do I care?*laughs* Anyway, do expect it to be this way for another week perhaps as I'm trying to do a major update on my website.

By the way, I have gotten a domain name for Logish Lifestyle. http://logishlifestyle.tk / http://logenlanka.tk (I have not enabled it yet)

Also, please do me a favour. If it is possible, please add my website to your links. Thank you.

Gotten really pissed at 3 persons anyway. That would be the fucking bus driver who retained my EZ-link card which doubles as an ID Card and 2 other friends. GRR!!! It is all related to the ID card. I need to return library books which by the way, not borrowed by me but a friend who overdued the books and now I need my card to return the book and pay the fines. See, it goes in a cycle.

I can't believe this! I'm having a headache beacause I'm worried that the bloody Library will take legal action against me if the book which isn't with me is not returned. Sick!

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Twiny! hehehe...

Well, I went out with Stacy and Mandy yesterday to watch "Mr and Mrs Smith". As usual, I was late so we couldn't get any tickets at Orchard Cineleisure and I had to run to Shaw House to get the tickets. YEEEEESH... It was so tiring but the movie was so COOL! *laughs* It'd be better if it was R21... :D

Okay okay! Anyway, I walked around Orchard with Mandy for about an hour + afterwards without Stacy as she had to go for tuition. Damn!!! Took the MRT back to Bishan and this stupid old man's hand kept hitting my ass accidentally! Fucking Ass! I felt so sexually violated... *LMAO*

I sort of needed some time alone so I walked around Junction 8. Later on I met up with Lauren and gang at Bishan Park. It was kind of peaceful and fun. I mean... yeah. We were like sitting on this high web thing at the playground just talking after the sand fight. Plus, it was a rather clear night with wind blowing. I don't know, it seemed to jut calm my emotions a bit. Okay, I in fact didn't give out anything when I was with them. I mean, I don't want to seem like a PMS guy which I'm not.

I had to walk all the way home. Grr! I did call my "twin sister" though. Somehow, she made me feel tons better. She just makes me feel as if I'm not alone and there's someone for me. Not that no one else is there for me but she seems to truly understand how I feel. Only 2 people are like that, she's one of them and the other is Nuraini.

I really have nothing much to say but I think my English is really slacking! *sighs*

Thursday, June 09, 2005

No Title

Alright, I didn't blog for a few days perhaps. *sighs* Quarreled with my mum. Not going to fill you in on the details though. Probably understood why she was so stressed. But what about me!? I know we have financial difficulty and you think I'm not affected by it?

Okay, that's not what I quarreled with her about but I know, it was on her mind. I mean, face it, it was one of those thing I constantly have to think about. All those things I think about are really interconnected. If you remember my really upset previous post, it is interconnected financially. Not only that, they(my family) thinks that I don't even care for them at all. Well, if that were true, I would never have felt as if someone stabbed me in the heart whenever I saw anything in the shopping mall that I really wanted to buy for them but could not afford it. I wouldn't lock myself in the room thinking of some SHIT to help us financially.

It's such a classic answer when, sometimes I stay out late(until maybe 8 or 9) on weekdays and I'm accused of gangsterism and womanising... WHATEVER! I really needed some time out and I'm accused of something. How convenient... I would be so happy if I were a womaniser!!! This is why, my looks is so constantly onmy mind. It just hurts so bad. Just taking some dilute liquor helps a little but it gives you a Bloody headache.

It's not really like this anymore. I mean, the accusations stopped. Quite alright now. However, I just can't help thinking. Once bitten twice shy... Learnt that valuable lesson from someone. In fact 2 someones who I feel so ashamed to talk to sometimes. They somehow mean alot to me but not close to me.

Sometimes, I feel so hypocritical. I don't think I really contradict myself but it somehow feels that way. Diana help me... Blessed be...

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Damn, I'm so dumb!

Okay, my bad. I did post yesterday. Hahaha!

Thats all folks...

I missed a day...

Hey hey, I'm back after one day. Was so so tired yesterday. Had only 2 hours+ of sleep. Damn, this was the reason why I wasn't alert enough to realise what I was saying. Major opps! Pray pray.

Also, really I would like to thank Mandy and Aryani(yeni) for really comforting and understand what I was going through yesterday. For your info, we(mandy and I) were forced to go to the Science Centre with the school. I thought it would be plain crap but I was wrong. We had fun but the lectures were boring. Not only that, we had fucking newbie teacher who acted like a disciplinary master-wannabe. Grr, that asshole.

Anyway, that was yesterday and its time I talked about today. *grins*

Actually, there was nothing special. Just that I had to make my I/C. Oh yah, when the lady at the service counter asked me my religion. My dad just said "Hinduism". Okay, that was half of what I used to be. I didn't say anything but I would have, if it would be reflected on my I/C. Even then, I don't even know if "Wicca" is a valid religion in Singapore.

After that, we headed home and left in an hour for Suntec Carrefour. Saw a really cool pair of high-cut shoes but they didn't have my size. Grr... Unexpectedly, I did found some aroma incense and cones that I needed religion-wise. They were so cheap! To make it better, it was from India. I just love some of their products.

Right now, I'm sitting in front of my computer blogging. Going to watch the television after this.

Blessed be.

Friday, June 03, 2005

I'm extremely shocked and disgusted right now! Those fucking bastards! I have just read a lawsuit statement against Bethel Boys Academy and am so very disgusted by every single statement. Okay, very soon, I'll probably be writing an article on this issue. Check out my "views" page to read that upcoming article.

Anyway, you must be interested in what got me so shocked. Honestly, I'm still shaking.

First off, the Bethel Boys Academy is supposedly a Christian Military School that "rescues" male minors that have disciplinary, behavioral or even learning problems. In other words a "religious" reformatory school. Lets sidetrack for a moment, how can a bloody reformatory school help in learning disorders!? Okay, back to topic.

The supposed "academy" abused the male minors by giving them crude nicknames that they have to use throughout their stay(mind you, this is a Christian academy!), they were beaten up by the staff of the academy and by other cadets who were forced to beat them up, made to hold on to an electric fence with their bare hands for MINUTES, drowned and resuscitated repeatedly and followed by beating again. This is not all. The injuries suffered by some were, deep cuts inflicted intentionally during the shaving of their whole head, a broken foot, a ripped ear, severe infection of knee(oh yah, they were only allowed to bathe once a week) and lets not forget severe trauma.

Read the following:
PART 8- JOSH LAWRENCE
PART 8, COUNT 1---- FRAUD, BREACH OF CONTRACT
212. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence incorporates all other parts of the complaint to the extent legally and ethically appropriate.

213. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence is the father of Plaintiff Josh Lawrence.

214. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence enrolled his son Josh Lawrence, a minor, in Bethel Boys Academy in or around Lucedale, Mississippi, on or about March 26, 2003. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was a student/cadet there until on or about June 6, 2003.

215. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence paid the sum of $2,000 up front and was to pay $1,800 per month to Bethel Boys Academy upon enrollment of his son, Josh Lawrence, for his education for the term of one year.

216. The Defendants made numerous claims to Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence, to the effect that they would provide a quality education, a humane training experience, positive peer influence, and a loving atmosphere.

217. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence relied on the claims of the Defendants that Plaintiff Josh Lawrence would be well cared for and properly educated for a year, in exchange for the payments for tuition. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence spoke with Defendants Herman and John Fountain, Jr., who assured him the program was a humane, caring, quality educational program.

218. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence believed the numerous representations of Defendants that Bethel Boys Academy offered hope and help to troubled young men, through positive peer influence, without the use of behavior modification drugs, without the use of students to punish or discipline other students, and because of the advertised loving atmosphere.

219. Defendants and all of them confined Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence’s son, through fraud and deception, from approximately March 26, 2003 through June 6, 2003.

220. Although Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence was assured by Bethel Boys Academy staff that he and his son would receive copies of the parent/cadet handbook, unbeknownst to Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence, his son was never shown or allowed to read a handbook while being confined there.

221. In direct violation of the terms of the contract made between Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence and Defendants, Defendants, without Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence’s knowledge or approval, allowed and encouraged assaults to be committed upon Josh Lawrence by allowing staff members and other students to beat, kick, or otherwise physically attack him.

222. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence was not informed of the treatment accorded his minor son, including but not limited to Plaintiff Josh Lawrence being shaved and beaten by adult Drill Instructors upon his arrival at Bethel; that Josh Lawrence’s personal belongings were stolen and burned while he was being shaved and beaten; that Josh Lawrence was told by Bethel staff members that his parents knew that he was being beaten and deprived of food and water; that Josh Lawrence was fraudulently told by Bethel staff members that his parents no longer wanted him; that Josh Lawrence was not allowed to freely communicate the conditions at the Defendant’s facility; or that Josh Lawrence was not allowed to freely communicate his physical or mental condition to his parents.

223. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence did not attend classes while at Bethel Boys Academy, but instead was made to work as a “house mouse” for the school staff that included, but was not limited to, cleaning the barracks for the staff and having coffee, etc. made and ready for them on demand.

224. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence has been damaged, in addition to the monies paid for tuition, by all other losses suffered, proximately caused by the fraudulent misrepresentations of Defendants. Plaintiff Leroy Lawrence’s son received no benefit from his payment and he has received no refund. Defendants have withheld the return of those funds without legal justification or excuse.

PART 8, COUNT 11 ---- ASSAULT AND BATTERY, FALSE IMPRISONMENT,
INTENTIONAL INFLICTION OF EMOTIONAL DISTRESS
225. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence incorporates all other parts of the complaint to the extent legally and ethically appropriate.

226. Defendants and all of them confined Plaintiff Josh Lawrence while he was a minor without legal justification by the use of fraud and deceit on the Plaintiff Josh Lawrence and his parents, from on or about March 26, 2003 until on or about June 6, 2003.

227. Although Defendants and all of their parents were told that they would be provided with a Boarding Academy Parent/Cadet Handbook, Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was never shown the handbook while being confined there.

228. Defendants and all of them have falsely imprisoned Plaintiff Josh Lawrence, and Defendants and all of them, knowingly acted in a manner that created a substantial risk to the life, body, and health of Plaintiff Josh Lawrence while he was a child less than seventeen years old. Josh Lawrence was prevented from leaving Bethel Boys Academy or using the telephone or other effective means of communication to report the abuse that he was receiving.

229. Immediately after arrival at Bethel Boys Academy, Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was made to change into army fatigues. His head was shaved bald, during which time several nicks were made to his scalp. His civilian clothes were burned.

230. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence suffered a broken nose when being thrown against the wall by the defendants.

231. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence suffered a broken foot when he was hit on the foot by DI Bonner with the golf club for not understanding when he was to have coffee ready for the staff. Plaintiff Lawrence received no medical attention until he was removed by the State of Mississippi and his parents took him to the emergency room.

232. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was told, repeatedly, that his parents knew that he was being beaten and deprived of food and water.

233. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was constantly being ridiculed by Bethel Staff members and other cadets because his dad was a Military Police officer (MP) when he was in the Army.

234. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence had his teeth knocked out by another cadet with a 2 x 4 while staff and other cadets watched.

235. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was made to hold onto the electric fence until he was told to let go. This was sometimes for several minutes.

236. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was made to feel very intimated by the Staff, since many of them carried guns and threatened the cadets with them.

237. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence feared for his safety and well being after watching other cadets being beaten and even drowned.

238. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was made to hold his arms out straight for hours or until his arms fell and hit the hot wire fencing.

239. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was only allowed to shower once a week, until an illness started among the cadets; then cadets were made to shower as often as twice a day.

240. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence and other cadets were made to clean Defendant Herman Fountain’s personal residence and the personal residences of other non-staff members.

241. Defendants committed numerous physical assaults upon Plaintiff Josh Lawrence, by kicking him, cutting him, shocking him with a Tether gun and depriving him of food and water.

242. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was held down by cadets as a bottle with water dripping from it was hung above his head by staff members. The water continually hit him right above his nose, causing him to feel like he was drowning.

243. Bethel Boys Academy intentionally inflicted emotional distress on Plaintiff Josh Lawrence by refusing necessary medical care, by the standing threats of beatings and arbitrary punishments, and by constant degradation and humiliation.

244. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was falsely told that his parents did not want him. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was falsely told that his parents knew about and had agreed to the treatment that he was receiving at the hands of the Defendants.

245. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence is still severely tormented by the memories of what happened to him.

246. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was prevented from telling anybody, even his parents, about the horrible abuses taking place inside Bethel Boys Academy because no phone calls were allowed when he was injured.

247. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence has suffered dramatic negative change as a result of his mistreatment. Since his release, he shows minimal affection to others within the family.

PART 8, COUNT 111 ---- NEGLIGENT MEDICAL CARE
248. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence incorporates all other parts of the complaint to the extent legally and ethically appropriate.

249. Immediately after his arrival at Bethel Boys, Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was forced to suffer a great amount of unwarranted and undeserved punishment for no apparent reason.

250. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence was not allowed to use the restroom as needed.

251. Most of the Plaintiff Josh Lawrence’s day was devoted to working for the benefit of Defendants.

252. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence suffered a broken nose when being thrown against the wall by the defendants. Defendants acted negligently in causing this injury and failing to treat this injury.

253. Plaintiff Josh Lawrence suffered a broken foot when he was hit on the foot by DI Bonner with the golf club. Defendants were negligent and grossly negligent in causing the injury and failing to provide medical treatment.

254. Defendants were negligent and grossly negligent in providing medical care, for injuries caused by the Defendants or suffered by Plaintiff otherwise.

255. As a result of the acts and omissions of the Defendants, Plaintiff Josh Lawrence has suffered severe and lasting emotional and mental trauma. As a result of the acts and omissions of the Defendants, Plaintiff Josh Lawrence is to the present day so emotionally and mentally damaged that he has difficulty relating to friends, co-workers, and others in the normal manner of a person who has not suffered the trauma Plaintiff Josh Lawrence suffered at the hands of the Defendants. The acts and omissions of the Defendants have caused a great deterioration of the quality of life of Plaintiff Josh Lawrence and family.
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If you genuinely have read the above, you'll know that the victims could never have any form of contact with the outside world. No one knew. Not even their parents!

I had said earlier that I'll be writing an article soon. There you'll find the full lawsuit statement and my sources.

Blessed be...

Thursday, June 02, 2005

I'm so weird...

Okay, I have decided that I feel normal enough to talk about what I did today. Hahaha. This is so dumb. A moment ago, I was still, you know. FYI I still haven't eaten but who cares...

I'd like to start from the point when the stupid English Programme with Mr Terence Tan was over. I was late anyway.

Nevermind that. After that, Aisvarya, Mandy, Jasika, Fateha and I went to Mc Donalds for breakfast. Saw Teck Khang and my "triplet brother", Nikhil there. *laughs*

Aisvarya was ordering food when this rude "cashier"(don't know what they're called) came up with the wrong order for coke. They ended up "arguing". I guess its Ais' hobby. *grins*

Anyway, we left for Marina Square Supper Bowl after our meal. Was really fun bowling and once again I broke my nail. Was worth it though. Beat both the bimbos at the first round but ended up last when my thumb which the nail broke was hurting. Okay, maybe I'm using this as an excuse for my loss but yeah, it did hurt. Should have cut my nails.

Watched "Cursed" later on. I think Guan Yu would make a very cute werewolf. *LOL*

We ended our chillin" out by strolling near the Singapore River. Went to Fullerton Hotel Toilet. It was so cool!!!

I end here. Happy Holidays! :) No cash to spend. :(

*sighs* About My Previous Post

I'm really sorry about my previous post. Not about the post actually, more of my mood. I'm just, in a really contradictory mood that I can't even explain what it is. My mum just threw away my almost empty clenser. Which means I won't be able to use anything decent to wash my face with for another 5 days which causes major break-outs and so much oiliness. Was feeling like, "I'm so not good-looking already and you want me to get zits!" I know its contradicting the reason as to why I have messy hair but just, some part of me refuses to believe that I can do nothing. I'm not the type that sit down and do nothing even if nothing I do will help. When I feel better, I'll start writing about my day with Aisvarya and Mandy. I'm also really hungry now. Probably part of the reason why I was so moody in the first place. Ciao... Be back later... hopefully

Feeling Ugly

You know its just one of those days when you look at someone and wished you were him/her. Okay, it doesn't matter... You're probably the someone I envy physically. In other words, a good-looker. WHATEVER.

I just, *tears* you don't know how it feels to be me. I feel as if I'm a lunatic blabering bullshit to an unseen audience. However, in this case, I don't think I'm schizophrenic. I... I just don't know.

All I want is just, I don't know. I mean I know, but I just don't want to say it. Just makes me feel so shameless. How would you feel if lets say, you are looking into the camera and someone says "Don't act cool, you know you're ugly..." Not very nice isn't it. In fact its very hurting. On top of that, you're self-concious of your looks ALL THE TIME!!! *feeling numb*

I just look at people all the time. You know what people I'm talking about. I'll be like, "you could very well get a gf/bf at the twitch of your pinky." Of course I don't say it out. I'm so sick of this! To be called names all the time.

You want to KNOW why I use to get facial products, dieting essentials, "beauty" essentials and other related stuff!? YOU SHOULD KNOW NOW... Tell you the truth, I like to get attention in a certain way to a certain extent. Well, who doesn't...

I'm not going to be very revealing in this post as to what I'm thinking on a deeper surface. I just want to keep it private... Why do I feel that this aspect has and will continue to screw up my life? That's because it did and will continue to do so.

For the record, I've heard the advise "just accept the way you look and are". Try being me and you say that to yourself and believe. To me its bullshit.

Oh, one more thing I want to reveal. You want to know why I have bad hair day all the time? I'll answer in a question format. Since I'm so ugly, why bother?

I end here...

My First Entry

This is my first entry for this blog which I have more or less decided to be my main blog/journal. I had realised that I needed some form of release from my emotions due to some past incidents. so, this is my place to, in general, vent my emotions. It's up to you if you want to read this blog but it shall not be my problem if you encounter any offensive material/content here. You have been warned.

I end here saying that, er... Just thanks for visiting my website and journal blog...

-Logen