Life... This certainly can't be it...
I am finally able to lose almost all emotional dependency towards anyone. Here's a downside, most of the time now, I feel as if my heart i beating so fast and I could hardly breathe. Sighs...
Anyway, Mrs Lai has been really amgry these few days and I mean really she blew her top. Sometimes I really pity her, no one really appreciates her efforts. Right now, I think, the amount of stress she is facing, also due to the build-up, is making her lose hope. She has been harsher and I would say that, it isn't completely her fault. In fact, most of it lies with the class. I'll be praying for her.
Ahh, I didn't have time to finnish up the POA TEST. I think I'm finally going down this time. FAILURE!!!
Well, besides this, Harris has been driving me crazy as he thinks I'm his love rival just because I went to MC DONALDS to study with her. Excuse me! I admit that some of our interests are common which makes it easy to talk to her but I DO NOT LIKE HER IN THAT SORT. I have enough fucking problems to think about having a fucking relationship. However, I do fancy someone else, I just can't help but be attracted to her. No plans though. As if she'd like a guy like me.
Okay, I wonder why I even explain the above. I'm on the verge of bursting. Be glad I haven't tell anyone off yet, it will be too hurtful. I have refrained from telling off 2 people. Just because I keep quiet and smile when I'm "provoked" doesn't mean I'm not angry. I don't suck up to no one. Continue and you'll see my other side. I'm not targeting any specifics here...
On with the better stuff now. I'm still pissed though. WHATEVER...
Had lots of fun with Lauren and Gladys just now. We swam till 4+ and went up to Gladys' house to bathe. At least her mother wasn't in the country.
Got to lie on her bed after that while they both were using the laptop. I put a pillow on my head like I always do when I sleep to block the light and that dumb Lorlan(Lauren) lean on top of the pillow on my head, I think. *laughs*
I guess I shut off for about 5 minutes and they woke me up saying that we were going to eat. I got off and they said they wanted to decide the location first. Girls are so indecisive. *grins* I wanted to get back on the bed then once again Lorlan jump on. SOBS. *LOL*
Instead of eating, we watched the first VCD of "Hot Chick". By the time we were done, it was decided that we would go to 7-11 to get some food. Somehow, when we looked at the cheese and the other frozen foods, our final decision was made. We were going to COOK. Quite okay, we fried omelete and watched the 2nd half of "Hot Chick".
Somehow, it felt as if we were family. I don't know. I mean, nevermind. I had fun. At least it got my mind off my problems...
Anyway, Mrs Lai has been really amgry these few days and I mean really she blew her top. Sometimes I really pity her, no one really appreciates her efforts. Right now, I think, the amount of stress she is facing, also due to the build-up, is making her lose hope. She has been harsher and I would say that, it isn't completely her fault. In fact, most of it lies with the class. I'll be praying for her.
Ahh, I didn't have time to finnish up the POA TEST. I think I'm finally going down this time. FAILURE!!!
Well, besides this, Harris has been driving me crazy as he thinks I'm his love rival just because I went to MC DONALDS to study with her. Excuse me! I admit that some of our interests are common which makes it easy to talk to her but I DO NOT LIKE HER IN THAT SORT. I have enough fucking problems to think about having a fucking relationship. However, I do fancy someone else, I just can't help but be attracted to her. No plans though. As if she'd like a guy like me.
Okay, I wonder why I even explain the above. I'm on the verge of bursting. Be glad I haven't tell anyone off yet, it will be too hurtful. I have refrained from telling off 2 people. Just because I keep quiet and smile when I'm "provoked" doesn't mean I'm not angry. I don't suck up to no one. Continue and you'll see my other side. I'm not targeting any specifics here...
On with the better stuff now. I'm still pissed though. WHATEVER...
Had lots of fun with Lauren and Gladys just now. We swam till 4+ and went up to Gladys' house to bathe. At least her mother wasn't in the country.
Got to lie on her bed after that while they both were using the laptop. I put a pillow on my head like I always do when I sleep to block the light and that dumb Lorlan(Lauren) lean on top of the pillow on my head, I think. *laughs*
I guess I shut off for about 5 minutes and they woke me up saying that we were going to eat. I got off and they said they wanted to decide the location first. Girls are so indecisive. *grins* I wanted to get back on the bed then once again Lorlan jump on. SOBS. *LOL*
Instead of eating, we watched the first VCD of "Hot Chick". By the time we were done, it was decided that we would go to 7-11 to get some food. Somehow, when we looked at the cheese and the other frozen foods, our final decision was made. We were going to COOK. Quite okay, we fried omelete and watched the 2nd half of "Hot Chick".
Somehow, it felt as if we were family. I don't know. I mean, nevermind. I had fun. At least it got my mind off my problems...
