Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Friday, September 16, 2005
New Lease Of Hope
I had been suffering from depression and I believe it's time I recovered. In this period, I have neglected who I was, what I was and my own advices. I would really like to thank Florence for the phone conversation we had an hour ago. While she was "counseling" me, I noticed the similarities in our perception of life. Shockingly, I found our life experience strikingly similar. She was hurt in the same way as did I. It reminded me alot about my old self, never caring about what people thought of me and teaching others to do the same). And I'm so grateful to her for reminding me about what life was all about, being yourself and to live and breathe the experiences as opposed to faking your personality and at the end finding your life to be worthless.
Simply, she had rescued me from drowning in the abyss of pain I had been feeling. I needed a friend and she became that friend. Just one person, helped me get back on the shore. Her views added another dimension to my views and hopefully mine did too. Its all about what you've left behind when you're gone. How many people's lives you haved touched.
I'm a big believer in the divine and I believe that Florence was in a way brought in to knock some sense back into me. I'm not saying that all my problems are gone, instead, I'm going to either solve them and put a positive perspective to it. Despite what I have just said, I think that once in a while, its good to slip back into depression. After all, what is life without experience adversity. It will take quite a while before I can truly be happy, I was sad for a long time, just used to it. I know it sounds weird but that's how it is.
It might be creepy to you that I'm thanking Florence for such a simple course of action, but if you have been to my personal purgatory, you'd do the same. Anyway, other than Florence's help, I have been reading this book, "A Walk On The Beach" by Joan Anderson and it has also helped to clear my mind. To all those who don't walk the path of the norm, I salute you. I'm finally making my way back to the abnormal path I walked a few years ago.
Logen
Simply, she had rescued me from drowning in the abyss of pain I had been feeling. I needed a friend and she became that friend. Just one person, helped me get back on the shore. Her views added another dimension to my views and hopefully mine did too. Its all about what you've left behind when you're gone. How many people's lives you haved touched.
I'm a big believer in the divine and I believe that Florence was in a way brought in to knock some sense back into me. I'm not saying that all my problems are gone, instead, I'm going to either solve them and put a positive perspective to it. Despite what I have just said, I think that once in a while, its good to slip back into depression. After all, what is life without experience adversity. It will take quite a while before I can truly be happy, I was sad for a long time, just used to it. I know it sounds weird but that's how it is.
It might be creepy to you that I'm thanking Florence for such a simple course of action, but if you have been to my personal purgatory, you'd do the same. Anyway, other than Florence's help, I have been reading this book, "A Walk On The Beach" by Joan Anderson and it has also helped to clear my mind. To all those who don't walk the path of the norm, I salute you. I'm finally making my way back to the abnormal path I walked a few years ago.
Logen