Sleep Paralysis
My love, for love, has made me forget my worries on narcolepsy. Eversince my first year at secondary school, I've been having sleep paralysis (I did not know the term for it at that time), with hallucinations; frightful ones, shadows, death.
Over the years, I know not, if the condition worsened; it was iregular but, the hallucinations got wilder. Not forgeting, late last year, I got the impression that I was being suffocated during paralysis. A few days ago, the paralysis occured thrice; after I got out of it, I returned to the state. This, hasn't happened previously.
Now, you can see why it worries me. Let me drop the bomb now-figuratively, of course-it is one of the symptoms of narcolepsy! Another symptom, read this previous post: http://logishlifestyle.blogspot.com/2006/02/lethargy.html - being tired even after ten hours of sleep.
What is narcolepsy? Basically, a condition in which, you sleep all of a sudden without warning; you could be in a conversation, driving a car, in the middle of a road. So, though I found it to a extent humourous to sleep in a conversation, I definitely stopped smiling when it occured to me that it could be FATAL.
Then again, I don't think I have narcolepsy. Though, I do have sleep paralysis (so-called disorder). I want to hallucinate on more sexually-related subjects. Makes life a tad bit fufilling.*laughs* What if, it is real? That is the question. Sinister spirits; now, I feel so violated.
However, seriously, I rather live in reality than something that is unreal. What I learnt in my long-gone life of depression(last year)? Never let your worries transcend the mind, it's so much more horrific than death. Its all about perception...
Ciao.
