Saturday, December 31, 2005

Enlightened? Perhaps there's still a bit of the journey left.

Life feels so much better now. Again, I don't feel chatty now.
 
However, it being New Year's Eve, I have made a few resolution: To be a better person and not to submit to pain but to face it;to work towards the Buddha but yet retaining by my Wiccan ways. I , without saying, somehow planned on how I shall study for my GCE' O's and, therefore, I resolute to stick to the plan. Lastly, I want to gain proficiency in English and improve my business skills, working my way towards my preferred choice of Cambridge University to get my MBA and English Masters. Thereafter... I guess that's too long for a New Year's Resolution.
 
A truly happy and fufilling new year to all my readers, friends and family(in case they know the blog). Cheers!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

My Notes

Just to inform you-my study notes can be found at Logish Notes.
 
I don't really feel like saying anything else. So, that's all folks...

Monday, December 26, 2005

Study study... School reopens soon

I may have found a solution as to how to study with the seduction of a computer-FINALLY-:Create a website containing notes that I shall type out, in due course, for all subjects that I will be taking for the GCE'O's.

I will leave the link here, shortly, after the website has been made. Sighs.

Around one week to the reopening of school. I have rather mixed feelings about it. The fact that I have not really completed revision, and holiday homework, does not help. However, the prospect of seeing some of my classmates and teachers is rather exciting. Though, I wouldn't want to see anyone who had grown taller in the holidays.

That's all for now, I guess. Ciao.

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

Happy X'mas Eve

I really have got nothing to say. However-still-I want to just do a bit of blogging.
 
So, to all of you, a very Happy X'mas. There you are, my finished posting.
 
Ciao.
 
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Thursday, December 22, 2005

Cambridge University

 
I had been surfing the internet for the past few hours, searching for British English resources to no avail. However, I did stumble upon the Cambridge University website and I'll be aiming to get my MBA's at Cambridge. That is, of course, after my GCE O's and going to Temasek Polyechnic for a diploma in Business Management and maybe Financing.
 
In the meantime, however, I'll try to win as many business competitions as I can. Thus, impressing the board during my application. Wait, there's Natonal Service(NS)! That is such a spoiler... I don't want to say anymore about it except - it is a waste of my time.
 
Let's see: I'll be 16 when I take the GCE O's -18 or 19 when I get my diploma - 20, 21 or 22 when NS is over - 25 or 26 when Univesity is done - be a millionaire by 30 - WHEN am I getting married? Bloody GIT!
 
What's my mood now? I cannot care less of it! %!^%@&#*!(&*(!

Mood disorder

It dawned upon me quite a long while ago that I may have mood disorder. Either that, or, I'm havng a horrible stage of puberty. I prefer the latter.
 
Yes, I admit, I do have a bloody problem concerning something that triggers the long chain of moods and emotions. If only the problem would dissolve or turn to my advantage(which is near impossible), I might be able to be more joyful.
 
Due to that, I was staggering home(not because of an injury), 'talking' to myself almost tearfully while making my way back home. I feel so unworthy of people, my family, friends, whatever... to care about me. Once again, I thought of shutting people out but I had grown tired of it already.
 
The course of action I am to take is currently blurry. Perhaps I'm making it so. However, ever since I gained full clarity, I wanted to now be rid of it. If such things of unbeauty had to be seen, I rather be blinded.
 
Maybe, all this, might bring me closer to understanding the path of the buddha. I don't know, for my thoughts conflict each other while my sight is pure. I'm losing the battle of denial. How long I can keep this up? I do not know. My faith is strong while my fate, a blur. Life...
 
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

DIY? English? Meditation?

In recent times, I feel as if I hadn't written a satisfactory post. Thus, I have decided to rectify my doings or undoing's with this post.
 
Currently, you could say that I have taken forth a sudden interest in DIY room improvement stuff and a growing interest toward mastering English. By this, I mean, really understanding the parts of speech, vocabulary, and most definitely punctuation.
 
A need to focus more on my studies, now that I'm to take GCE O's the following year but seem to lack motivation. Having thought about this, I will adopt Lauren's method of night studying, in hope that the television will not seduce me with it's interesting content.
 
Anyway, I have just remembered that I owe some people cash, totaling up to perhaps a hundred dollars. I'll most definitely return the cash with my Ang Pow money (Chinese new year money). That is, if I don't want to keep it for myself.
 
Never mind the dilemma I'm facing, people, I have to get my priorities straight and try to meditate on it and wishfully cure my temper. I'm on to a cross-path of the Buddha and a normal person - I'm on to the path of Professor Albus Dumbledore! WOOT's!
 
Ciao.
 
P.S. I'm not crazy. I'm as sane as you and I (Okay, I wonder I have made the correct statement.)
 
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Friday, December 16, 2005

No Comments...

At present, I find that I'm better able to control my emotions, which in fact, is influenced by the person I'm with. Not going to quote you examples though.
 
Now, lets get on to the Potter list...
 
Harry Potter: Harris Potter
Hermione: Aismione Granger
Albus Dumbledore: Albus Logendore
Mcgonagol: Yagonagol
Voldermort: Laurdermort
Draco Malfoy: Kaico Malfoy
(decided to add a twin draco: Yuco Malfoy
 
*laughs*
 
Wait! I see DEMEANTORS! Bloody hell. "EXPECTO PATRONUM! That'll teach you..."
 
*lmao*
 
Oh No! Muggles! "Stupefy"
 
Hey, this isn't right. It doesn't make them stupid...
 
Ok, I'll stop my himboticism now. I'm just real bored.
 

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Test

This shall be a test for my internet connection...
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

An onset of mood

How could be someone I loathe to be? You'd think it's impossible for all the bad to happen. Not that it's bad but I have hopes and dreams.
 
Sighs...
 
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Monday, December 12, 2005

Himboticism

I found out at the cost of 3 hours of my time that I have used neutraliser to straighten my hair. When I finally read the instructions, it was at around 4 in the morning!
 
Nevermind, just to keep you posted...
 
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It now makes more sense

Although I haven't read "Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban", I did watch the movie. The map, Lupin, Sirius, whatever - it all makes more sense now. 
 
However, I still am having the urge of getting my hands on the first 3 books. I am hoping that Rowling will be coming up with the book by the middle of the next year.  
 
By the way, I'll be meeting Ais later in the evening. We'll be going to watch "Holiday On Ice-Hollywood". This is going to be splendid but right now straightening cream still sits on my head. I'll get rid of it and hopefully have a better looking hairstyle. I admit, I'm metrosexual. Depends on the mood though.
 
I know you're sick of it! Nevertheless, why did dumbledore die!? Stupid Snape...

Sunday, December 11, 2005

The quest to cds

Unlike my ex-student, Bala, who became a proffessor, I still have a fear of buying C.D.s at 7-eleven. Those who know me well should be able to intepret the abbreviation.
 
OH MA! I need it for satisfaction!
 
*sighs
 
Once again, how could Dumbledore die?
 
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Saturday, December 10, 2005

Hello?

I am really curious as to how many visitors are there to this blog and I have a feeling that there is almost none. Other than using a third party online statistics service that keeps track of my visitors, I'm hopping blogspot has it's own internal statistics tracker.
 
That's all folks!
 
Wait! I forgot to say- I won a pair of tickets to 'HOLLYWOOD ON ICE'! It's over a Hundred Singapore Dollars per ticket. Alright, not going to say anything else.
 
That really is all folks...
 

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This is sad...

After having read all the "Potter" books that Rowling had written except for the first three. I now think, I have gone nuts.  
 
I was on the phone with a friend last night and when she was complaning about the MATH question she, at that moment, could not solve, I though she was talking about TRANFIGURATION. Without saying, CHEMISTRY seemed more like POTIONS now.
 
This all seems rather amusing. However, I'm to saddened by the fact that Proffesor Albus Dumbledore died. Nevermind!
 
Anyway, if you have read one of my first posts in this blog, you would have known that I'm a Wiccan. So, what are my views on the book? I would say that Rowling has a true outline of how a spell is done but the results of course are not that dramatic. What exactly is this outline then? Intention, focus and release of energy. You might want me to cite some examples but well, I'm lazy to do so right now. However, you can find out more at http://www.hp-lexicon.org/ .
 
In that aspect, the book has drawn me, though in the past, I have once thought the books were utter rubbish. That was until I have read one of them, aware finally that the author had actually quite an extensive on the mythical realm. Although, I must say that not all of the creatures exsists even in myths and are creations of Rowling.
 
Finally, NO, we Wiccans are not like the characters in the book, obviously. So, why am I sad now?
Oh, I remember, Dumbledore died...

Monday, December 05, 2005

Constricted Words

A strong urge to say something from deep within, but yet, nothing revealed. The limited words I know constrict my unwritten expressions. As I pride myself for making it so far.
 
Further into the post, still unknowing of what it will become. My emotions now static, misery that do not end in tears. It's so much worse than crying.
 
Though eversince clarity came to me, I kept the big picture in my head. Not as worried or depressed. Is it a blessing or a curse? Only god knows...
 

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How could you do this to me?

Just a mere conversation to someone and an utter paranoia comes over you. A close friend to me and you thought of something more.
 
At present you openly profess your crush on the one I adore. I said nothing, but deep inside shock by your clueless contempt. Is it even fair? I ponder, as words of advice from me to you, spell the route towards courtship.
 
I long to feel love, be it puppy passion or sincere pleassure. Am I destined to feel it in the first place? Here I sit with a losing debate with myself as more complications occur.
 
I cast an eye of envy at the many who put their arms around someone. While me, like a wall flower, a decoration in itself. Itself! Like the moon staring down at the sea playfully slaping the sandy shores. Perhaps I'm supposed to be part of an unseen audience, to see and not to do.
 
*sighs*
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Sunday, December 04, 2005

Post Of Horror

Didn't have the concentration to blog last night as I was having a conference with Laur and Harris. It was really nice to frighten them. Although, I did freak myself out sometimes. 
 
Here are a few "facts"
 
It is said that if  you looked in 1 of the13 mirrors(if I didn't remember wrongly) that reflected off themselves simultaneously  at 3.33 a.m., you would see yourself in the mirror at the point of death.
 
Cutting the skin of an apple in front of the mirror will reveal the face of your future fiance or fiancee. However, if you were to break the skin before you are done cutting, you'll get the gift of seeing. Seeing things that no one else can..
 
Salt represents life and is said to be able to repel evil. Sea salt is more effective.
 
Okay, more for some other day. Feeling bored and tired still.

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Saturday, December 03, 2005

Obsession with blogging?

It is a likely that I have been obsessed with blogging in the past few days. I'm thining that I should attribute this cause to boredom.

Right now, I have a lucrative business plan in mind. However, I just don't have the financial means in starting it up. Have plans to drag my uncle down into it though but I have to write a business plan if it's ever going to work.

Enough of that for now, I'm hungry. So, I'm going to journey towards the kitchen and stuff myself with the roasted chicken!

P.S. I foresee a trip to the toilet after eating. lol*

Just a Little bored and tired

Don't trust the title, it's definitely an understatement. Here I sit looking at the yellow screen bored and surely tired to an extreme level. My back aches and I shall definitely try to stretch backwards a few times so as to prevent myself from turning into the Hunchback of Notredame.
 
Hopefully by tomorrow, I shall start studying. It seems all too easy to just grab my book off the shelf  but the body and brains feels so lazy. Nevermind, this doesn't even seem like an interesting topic.
 
Anyways, before I got to this stage of boredom, I was under Shun Li's old condo, having a excruciatingly dull barbeque party. Most of us wasn't even socialising with one another. By this, I mean the girls and the guys, except me, of course. I always hang out with the girls.
 
So, after a while, when Shun Li was thrown into the pool, then proceeding to Jerrold and eventually me, I thought the fun was begining but well, again, I was wrong. The others were so unsporting, showing a really cheebaified(a hokien vulgarity expression) outburst of anger when you tried to pull them into the pool. If I knew the party was to be of such dullness, I wouldn't have gone in the first place. Being hopeful that the situation could change, I stayed there till Ais and the rest wanted to leave, disapointed that nothing fun did actually happen unlike the previous barbeque.
 
That about sums it all up. Oh, besides this, an irritating cockroach made me shout and jump thrice(Florence's screaming at the cockroach in the distance counted).
 
Lastly, nevertheless, I appreciate the efforts of the organising "comittee" for the barbeque. I still look forward to the next one, when we hopefully get wild and crazy.
 

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Friday, December 02, 2005

Pissed by the stupid SCREEN!

Thinking that the screen was fixed, I sat down and enjoyed viewing my website as a normal non-colour blind person would. However, eventually, by the next day, I discovered that I had an onset of colour blindness the moment the screen was turned on. Not only that, a terrible headache came upon me.

My father did of course change the monitor and once again I thought that the problem was solved. How wrong was that! Nope, this monitor didn't change colour, it made me feel as if my short-sightedness increased in a second by 300 degrees and needed to get new glasses! I now sit in front of a screen barely able to decipher what I have been typing.

As much as I feel a sudden urge of whacking the hell out of the monitor, I know that the effect of it wouldn't be as great as the previous "colour blind monitor". Okay, I tried it already. The only thing that works, is to lower the contrast of the screen to extreme low levels.

Alright, life sucks... Wait, why am I blaming life for a bloody monitor that is "blur-worded"? Sighs...